And lots of things on my mind, though I suppose that's normal being pregnant and all. It amazes me sometimes, the little lives growing in me -- not showing yet but that time will come. I think a lot about the past; lately I've been nostalgic for those I knew, loved, dreamed about. I wonder what my life would have been like if my relationships hadn't changed. For one, I wouldn't have had this opportunity (for which I hope for a pair of little kings). May be it's just that late hour or the insomnia I've been having the last couple of days... I wish there wasn't this empty place in my heart -- where old wounds have left a void I always thought would fill with time. I am so human, despite myself, to love and regret equally though I never thought I would.